How many times a day do we say “sorry?” Whether it is intentional and we are truly apologizing to someone, or maybe we accidentally bumped into somebody and easily could have said “excuse me” instead of “Oh, I’m so sorry!” Many times, we just word vomit it without even thinking about it, and I almost said that I was sorry for not posting for so long…
But instead I want to say thank you to my audience for being patient with me while I took some time to put myself first. I know it has been about two months since my last post, but life was taking some turns that I needed to navigate through and focus my attention and energy on myself.
I hate to admit this: but I burnt myself out.
I bit off more than I could chew.
Even though I did my best to learn from my previous episodes of burnout. But you know what? I feel like I handled this last time much better than I ever have…although it still wasn’t easy. It just goes to show that habits you have developed over years don’t change overnight: you still have to WORK. EVERY. DAMN. DAY.
But even when times are tough, you have to find the lesson in what life was trying to teach you.
My lesson was I still am a people pleaser at my core. I have done SO many things for other people and put myself on the back-burner in order to help other people with their needs. Especially when it comes to the workplace…it’s a bad habit that I learned from my mom (sorry mom, truth hurts sometimes!). And while I have made progress in doing what I can not to care so much what other people think, sometimes it is hard to practice what I preach!
That’s what I mean when I say that breaking habits is hard work…and do we really ever TRULY “break” our habits? Or do we just learn how to better manage them through being disciplined??
There’s a philosophical food for thought question for ya…
So this is my warning for those of you who are doing your best to make everyone else in your life happy except for yourself: you need to stop.
You need to do what is best for YOU.
I know, I know…all of this sounds so cliché: but honestly, it is so true! You are important, but you shouldn’t try to do everything by yourself and you should invest in yourself and your well-being wherever you can :)